My Story Isn’t Over

My Story Isn't Over

“Once you start recognizing the truth of your story, finish the story. It happened but you’re still here, you’re still capable, powerful, you’re not your circumstance. It happened and you made it through. You’re still fully equipped with every single tool you need to fulfill your purpose.” ― Steve Maraboli

Here I am again, waiting for the sunset to come. There is something about the sunset with its vibrant splash of colors that draws me closer to life, that reminds me to pause for a while, and take life one day at a time.

What a beautiful sight to end a long day!

I watched intently as the sun made its slow descent down the horizon. Twilight began to creep across Manila Bay, and soon darkness takes over its reign.

I loosened the laces of my running shoes, straightened out my legs, and opened the notebook that has been sitting on my lap. As I skimmed through the words written on the first few pages, I was brought to a realization that was made even clearer by the soothing sound of waves trying to reach me above the breakwater.

There are countless things I wish I have done; there are numerous things I wish I did not do.

There are words I wish I have boldly spoken and there are words I wish have kept in silence.

There are feelings I wish have expressed and there are feelings I wish have just ignored or held back. (Related Story: Tormented and Torn Apart)

There are people I wish I have not known and there are people I wish I have valued more ― the branches of my life.

There are life-changing lessons I wish I have learned well and there are painful realities I wish I have understood and accepted earlier in life.

There are places I wish I could no longer remember and there are places I wish I have never been to.

There are opportunities I wish I have seized with a braver heart and there are challenges I wish I have faced with a tougher mind.

There are dreams I wish I have not surrendered to fears and there are possibilities I wish I could have achieved if only I fought a little harder.

There are bridges I wish I burned immediately after the first time I mistakenly crossed them, and there are less attractive bridges I wish I have chosen to cross because they would lead me to more delightful life experiences.

There are journeys I wish I have finished well and there are journeys I wish I have never started. (Related Story: Journey To Life’s Lonely Roads)

There are decisions I wish I was smart enough to not let my heart decide on and there are choices I wish I made more wisely that could have put me in a better position today.

This is my life story ― full of regrets.

It has been twenty-nine years today since hope was first seen through my innocent eyes. It is the same hope that kept this life story keeping on, holding on.

But sometimes, it is hard to hope.

Several times, my heart and faith failed. My soul became troubled and weary. I have lost more battles than I won. I have lost sight of all the interesting thing that life has to offer, and I wondered what is there to hope for.

Hope can be as cold as death in the darkest night, but it can also be as warm as the sunshine that gives a wellspring of life every morning.

Regrets of the past marred certain episodes of my story. They made my story ugly, not even worthy of playing back. But it is the same ugliness that can bring my plot to a happy ending.

My story isn’t over; I know that I can always turn over a new leaf, and begin writing a brand new story that strives for a life of no regrets. After all, the story of redemption did not end at the calvary. Tweet

Hope breaks through my regrets. Hope remains. Hope never dies. Hope redeems my story.

3 Comments on My Story Isn’t Over

  1. You always have a way with words, Jayson. I think the very things you mentioned above (though you may see them as regrets) are what makes your life unique, worth it, and most importantly–YOURS. You are not alone in feeling that way as I do, too. Although there are decisions we may regret in the future, as long as we are being true to ourselves in the present moment, I think that’s all that matters. Afterall, it’s not a loss if we learn. 🙂

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  2. I love that closing line so much. Yes, sometimes it’s hard to hope, especially when we are burdened with regrets and could-have-been. I admire your resilience. Keep holding on to faith, my friend. Hindi pa tapos ang laban.

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  3. Yes, we can always change our story and start a new one that includes wisdom from the old. Stories build on each other! The rewrite to change can take awhile and I sometimes can get impatient but just the smallest change, like punctuation, can make the story change! Thanks for this reminder today.

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